Weight Watchers

I joined weight watchers two weeks ago. I joined the online only program as I know that in getting to in person meetings would not happen. So far I lost 4 pounds last week and am loving it. I am allowed 31 points each day and then get a weekly allowance of points to splurge on through out the week and can also earn actively points that can transfer to eating points. I have the application on my phone and its made life super easy. I have started to make little changes and have not been eating as much. I have gone over my points some days, there is usually one thing that will push me over if I do. I went over yesterday because I had Taco Bell for dinner on my way to class. I will be going over today because I had a danish for breakfast. It was so little but turned out was 10 points!!!!!!!! I now know not to grab something quick at the gas station anymore.

Tomorrow is my weight check, so hopefully I'll have either lost weight or stayed at the same. Right now my goal is 5% of my body weight. Lets hope I can get to it sooner then later.

10 day no soda challenge

I am trying to go off pop. Two weeks ago I did it and made it a week with only 1 can of pop. I got discouraged because I didn't really lose any weight. I was still drinking sweet tea and some carbonated water that has nutra sweet in it. This time I won't drink those only water and juice.

I am having a problem with getting discouraged a giving up lately. I was doing go on the 30 day shred for a week but lose no weight and it made me mad and I quit. I also was doing good about going off of pop but that didn't last. I guess I'm looking for instance results and I need to get in the mind set that its not going to happen like that.

Keeping track of what I was eating was going well but I broke my laptop and lose the webpage. Now that public school is over and all my summer classes are online I will have more time at home and will start doing that again because it was really helping.

I went for a walk with my kids and mother in law yesterday and was so out of shape. My chest hurt when we got home. I am try and take them for more walk now because they also need the exercise.

One day one of the no pop ch allege I weight 241.2 pounds. Hopefully after 10 days that will have changed a little.

30 day shred

So I ordered a new Jillian Michael's workout DVD called 30 Day Shred. It is made up of 20 minute workouts on three different levels. Each workout has 2 minutes of warm up and then 3 cycles of 3 minute of strength training, 2 minutes of cardio, and a minute of abs and final two minutes of warm down. I did it wensday when I got the DVD. I did the whole 20 minutes. It was soooo hard. I could barely do it but I did. I had a lot of trouble with the jumping exercise. By the 10 minutes mark I could barely move but I pushed through. I was not able to workout Thursday because of a major school project to do and Friday I was jsut too depressed to work out. I did it tonight and boy was it hard again. I did a little better today with the jumpong exercises. By the 4 minute mark I wanted to quit but she says something on the DVD "you don't get results for free". If I want to lose weight and be healthier I can not give up.

I have been doing good cuting out the pop. I had 1 wensday and onw tonight. I haven't stop completly but I have made a huge change from me 3 a day. I do need to cut back on the sugar. the Easter candy is gone so that will help.

My husband and I wanted to go to the the gym today but we had too much to do to get there. We might get there tomorrow. I cleaned the kitchen today. most times I clean the counters, take a break, sweep, take a break and then mop. Well today I didn't take a break. I keep up until I finished mopping and then I took a break. It was nto easy. I am so out of shape but I'm trying.

snacking

I'm done being fat. just done. I want to be healthier. I want to look better. I had successes and failures this week. I did not have a pop on Wensday. I was so proud of myself.the four days previsly I had pop but like 3/4 to1/2 of a can so I had been cuting down. Thursday Nick got Mcdonalds and got me food. I didn't tell him in time that I didn't want any. There was no way that I could say no to Mcdonald when it was right in front of me. I don't have that much will power. Friday was my down fall. I had two cokes and a frozen coke. Real cokes not coke zero. I went to a party that night and had like two hotdogs minus the buns and some fruit with cream cheese dip. I am guessing that the drip had a ton of calories.

I did work out 3 times this week already. I did the wii fit foir 45 minutes on sunday and wensday. I did a 35 minute workout video on Tuesday. I didn't work out on thursday because I had to get up really early in friday and needed the sleep.

I have a $10 gift card to amazon.com that I had been saving because there are some books coming out soon that I want. However I just found out about a video called 30 shred by Jillian Michael the person from biggest loser. the reviews looked great. I think instead of the books I am going to get the vidoe. I only have two vidoes and the wii fit right now and I need other things to prevent myself from getting bored.

My probelm right now is snacking. There is still easter candy around and I see if and I pop it into my mouth. How bad could a few m & M;s be right? I have to get rid of it soon or all my effort will go out the window.

On a diet

I started keeping an online calorie counter. The first few days I did really well. These past two days not so much. It has been teaching me about what kind of calories I am eating. I had Mcdonald's today. My fish fillet value meal large size is about 1000 calories. That is half the daily recommend allowence. To be losing weight I should be eating 1500 calories but I have not even gotten close to that. Right now I am just focusing on making sure that I don't go over 2000 calories.
I am on spring break right now and have a fully stocked kitchen. I'm bored out of my mind and have been baking. Yesterday I made brownies and pretzel rods covered in vanilla frosting and fruity pebbles. I made them for my graduate school class but there were tons of left over. Just 1 hour ago after the frozen chicken went into the oven I made deviled eggs. I think I ate 4 whole eggs. I have not entered the deviled eggs into the calorie counter but I am going to guess that I am already over my daily alowance and I haven't even had dinner yet.
Right now I am drinking as much water as I can so when dinner happens I am not that hungry. I know that I will stay up late and be hungry later. I have to find a way not to eat tonight. I really need to be good about this diet for the next two days because Easter is Sunday and I am making a thanksgiving meal. Tonight I am making fried chicken for the family but have put some aside just baking for me. I will have baked chicken and a salad tonight. I will also go for a walk after the kids eat dinner.
I started to buy myself fat people clothes. This didn't bother me as much as I thought. I can look in the mirror and feel better about myself because I don't look frumpy. I look good. I still want to lose the weight. I want to have another baby in the future but will not get pregnant being this overweight. So if I start losing the weight now by the time we are ready for another baby I should have lost it by then.

Bananna Split

Man, I want a banana split right now really bad. I have all the stuff and had one last night and I want another one. The scale is not my friend today and I already had McDonald's for lunch and 3 cokes so I really can not afford to have that banana split right now. I am taking an online midterm that is taking me forever. I'm 1/4 done and its taken well over an hour. I would love to have something sweet to help make this test easier.
I am not going to do it. Not going to eat it.
I am downstairs away from temptation and drinking a carbonated flavored water

Well

Well, I went to the Doctor's yesterday and their scale said I weighted 239. I about threw up. My scale at home that morning said 232. At home my weight goes from about 232 to 235. I have not lost any weight. I did put my mother in law excersize machine in the living room but have not been able to find time to use it. Between school, subbing and cleaning a house of 7 slobs excersing is the last thing on my list.

On a upside, I have bought some clothes that actully fit. meaning plus size clothing. I've had someone ask my if I lost weight!!!! No, but I have finally come to grips with being fat and know that it will not be lost soon. I have started wearing clothes that fit because It make me feel better.

It is 11:30 am and I have not had a pop yet but that won't last long. I'll have one at lunch. I did have one piece of chocolate so I guess that sorta cancels out the goodness of not having a coke yet.

loving the fat- the new goal

I've lost a few pounds so that is a good thing. This morining the scale read 230 which is so much better then the 236 I weighded in at a few months ago. I had been down to 228 last week but working full time and drinking a hell of a lot of soda was not great. I did eat out a few times but for the most part ate microwavable meals. So that might be something. I really think not eating out a lot will be very helpful.
I have notice that I drink a lot of pop when I am not at home. At home I drink some pop but a lot of water mostly at night when I get home from work. This means that I have to get up and pee in the middle of the night a lot but I know I need all the water I can get.
Something I have done in the last few weeks was come to the decision to accept my weight. I had so many clothes that I couldn't wear because they didn't fit, were too tight or show off my pregnant looking tummy. I know to help my self esteem that I need to make sure that all my clothes fit me and made me fill good about myself. I just packed away a box of clothes that didn't fit. In the prosses I found a few clothes that I though didn't fit but in fact did.
I am hoping that by doing this, by accepting me for who I am, that I will be more comfortable being me. I know I need to lose the weight to be healthy but being down on myself and hating the way I look is going to make me more depressed and will cause me to eat more. If I can accepted and love myself the way I am I will happy and more mentally healthy. I am still going to try to lose the weight but am going to try to love myself more.
I am off of work today and will make it a point of working out especially since I will be going to Red Lobster for lucnh because my husband got me a gift certificate for Christmas. I am going to enjoy it because we have not gone there in years but I will not be getting on the scale tomorrow.

I just don't know

I thought I had been doing well. I ate out Last Friday and then last Saturday. I have not eaten out for the last 3 days not a big deal but the scale says I am 4 pounds heavier then I was on Sunday. I did just drink a lot of water right before I got on the scale but I know that it did not add that much weight to me. I thought I had been doing good but I guess not.

It has to be the snacking. I get a nutty butty bar and a coke in the morning. I usually have some kind of snack around 8:30 and then eat lunch at 11:40. I then come home and eat another snack and then eat dinner late that night and sometimes have a snack later. OMG that is so much eating now that I see it in writing.


My Goals for the next few days are

• Go walking tonight
• work on the WII FIT on Wensday for at least 30 minutes
• drink only 1 coke a day
• Carry my water jug to school this week instead of getting coke
• stop snacking at my planning period
• do not snack after school, come home and have an early dinner

Hopefully I can do all of these things. I just can not stand being like this anymore.

disgusted with myself

The scale reached a number I never thought I would see under me. 232. I am just disgusted with myself right now. i know it is from eating out at night. Everyone morning before school my friend and I stop at a gas station. I get a coke and something for breakfast like a nutty butty bar. not the best breakfast I know. Since, I am student teaching I eat lunch with my students. I eat the school lunch and know that it is healthy. The problem is that it is not a lot of food and I am starving by the time I leave school. since I have some school loan money left we just stop on the way home and grab food. I think I ate out everyday last week. The weekends also kill me because I work on Saturday and always go to subway. not the best idea let me tell you. I also had 3 cokes yesterday. Today we had an early meeting and we got Hardee's for lunch.

I also am not working out. I do a lot of walking at school. enough that the nutty butty bar would not be a huge deal, it is the eating after school that is hurting me. I am so tired by the time I get home that I can think of cooking.

My goal for the day is no more cokes and only one snack before dinner
my goal for the week is only to eat out once.
I also need to keep updated this and recording what I eat. seeing it in print makes it more really how much I am eating.

well well

I was doing so well on the Wii fit. Actually starting to lose a few ounces and then all the hard work went out the window. I started working full time. By the time I would get home I would be hurting to bad to be able to exercise. On my days off I would be too tired to work out at the end of the day.
I start school again on Monday and was giving the 4 days prior to it off of work. I did my Wii fit for the first time since June. I work out for an hour. my legs are hurting pretty bad right now.

I have cut done on the pop though. I got on the scale on Tuesday and it said 231. that is the highest I have ever been. I have gone down to about 1 pop a day. I about down to 227. not great but a difference. I did have two pops today because I ate out at Hardee's for lunch and then had pizza for dinner.It won't happen again hopefully. I know I probably consumed more calories today then I should have even after working out.

After all that good food and then exercising I am making Nick get me some chocolate. I am craving it. I so addicted to food.

Wii Fit

Well it is the middle of June and while I have not lost any weight, I have not gained any either. This is a good thing because my life style during the summer is more sedentary then during the school year. Last summer I gained over 8 pounds. the main reason that I have not gained any weight is my wii fit. I got the Wii Fit game over a month ago and work out on it 3 or 4 days a week from anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour and 30 minutes. I like the conveince of the game along with the variety of games. I love the boxing game and also the free step and free run where you can changed the channel and watch tv while you step or run for 30 minutes. This is really a plus for me because I get bored just working out. My mind has to be working which is why I am such a book person.

I have not really curved my eating habits except for the fact that I have started to drink sweet tea at home. I still am having a pop or 2 a day but i am really liking the sweet tea. I am not sure if the tea is any heather but at least it does not have the sodium that pop does.

I am really hoping to lose at least a few pounds by the time school starts but i am coming to grips with being overweight and am going to focus on getting healthier. weight loss will come will better health and that is how I need to start looking at it.

New Update

So its been 6 months since the last time I posted. This last semester has been hell for me. I was in the elementary education methods block, which included 120 observation hours plus 4 upper level classes. I actually did about 180 observation hours which included a least 2 if not 4 lessons for each day I was there which was Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. I also worked anywhere from 22 to 30 hours a week as a cashier for Best Buy. On Fridays I literally went straight from school to work. I loved working with the students and love my job but can not waiting until I am out of school and have a full time job as a teacher.

As you probably can imagine I did not have a lot of time for much this semester, especially taking care of myself. I ate where I could, what I could. I did get a lot of exercise running around the elementary school but my diet canceled that out. I ate out a lot and even when I didn't I drank a lot of pop. I was barely getting any sleep since after the kids went to bed I had to do school work. The pop was the only thing keeping me awake.

The semester is over and I am not taking any summer classes. Just working 2 days a week and studying for the test to get my teaching certificate. I am now worried that my weight is going to go up. Last summer I gained 8 pounds because of the lack of excersise and I can not afford for that to happen again. I have been trying to get outside and play with my kids but I don;t have a lot of energy I did buy the Wii Fit and have been working out on that. It is fun and convinent and I can only hope that it helps me lose some weight.

A Not Important Update

Well, in November i started working at Best Buy as a casher.I was 215 pounds The week before Christmas I was down to 211 pounds. This was even with eating out a lot because I was never home. I was drinking more water because we were not allowed soda on the floor and getting a bit of excersize because I always ended up vacuuming my area and then a few other people's. One night I vacuumed almost the entire store. I quite the 3 days before Christmas and one week later I am back up to 214 pounds. I am not getting any excersie and eating a lot.

Why am I eating a lot?
1) It is Christmas time and my mother in law made tons or great tasting deserts.
2) there was a ton of candy in my stocking, but i have not even eating a quarter of it yet
3) I am really stressed and board and when I am stressed and board I eat.

How to I stop eating?
1) well most of the deserts are gone by now so that is something
2) I still have candy but i really do not want to eat it
3) find things to do to prevent boardom
4) find others ways to relived stress

Number 3 and 4 are going to be really hard to do. Since, I do not drive and can not leave the house my options are limited. I can clean, play outside, read and play on the internet. There is only so much cleaning a person can do, i don't like to take my sick kids outside and I usually read at the table eating. I have yet to find a way to relive my stress besides eating.

Today alone, I have had a bowl of chili, 4 cookies, 1 coke zero, and 2 pieces of fudge. which does not seem that bad being that it is 1:39 but considering that I slept until 11:30. it is bad. What is terrible is that I am still hungry. I guess it would be better to eat another bowl of chili versus snacking on cookies all day

update

I am really bad on updating this thing. It maybe that there has been no huge updates to post.
School started and that meant YOGA class. I was dreading it but turns out that I love it. I have a great teaching who is really understanding and if I can't do something she is totally okay with it. She teaches us a lot of restorative positions that have really helped me. I actually fell asleep one class and it was the best 45 minutes of sleep that I had gotten in weeks. There is has been a few pounds weight loss but nothing major that I am going to get excited about. My eating habits have not changed that much except that I am drinking more water.

I have seen some other benefits from taking yoga
1. Mentally I am feeling awesome. Like there has been a huge improvement in my depression since i started. even with a lot of stresses, I am feeling happy and able to handle the stresses
2. my pain is not as bad as it was. I am still having a lot of back pain but I think that it is from my bed.
3. my face, which this summer was cover with zits, has now clear up a ton
4. sex is better for me. used to be it hurt but the last couple of times has been freaking amazing.

Proud of myself

I actually finished a whole work out video. It was 40 minutes long. I've never been able to go past 30 minutes before. I am really proud of myself for finished it.
On the other hand my home scale says I gained those two pounds that I lost back. I can not seem to lose weight. I've realized that it is my diet. I've tried to give up pop but it is so hard. I posted on my fridge a paper that states: No pop, 1 dairy item daily, one sweet daily and small portion. I'm hoping it will help me.
I need to start setting smaller goals for myself.

Goal for this week is to try to elimate pop. I had one today so none tomorrow.

Workout Videos

Something my Doctor said to me at my last appointment about making exercing fun and something for me really hit me. Two days later I started working out. I have about 5 differnt exercise videos and have been using them. I also have spent time just stretching my muscles. I have not been able to workout for more then 30 minutes so far but have made some progress in the week that I've been working out. I been switching between 3 different videos right now and each time I do one I get a little bit father then I did the last time I worked out to that video.
My scales says that since my last doctor appointment 9 days ago I've LOST 2POUNDS!!!!!. How wonderful is that. It is not official until because I am using my doctors scale and the official weight but it is an way of telling my if I am going in the right direction.
I've also been drinking as much water as I can. I will fill up a gallon water jug and sit and drink it at one time if I can. I have not cut out pop yet but the water is helping control my appetite. I've even cut back a little on my snacking.
I've still got a LONG way to go but I might finally be on the path to my goal.

Far away from the wagon

Well, I am not doing good at all on the weightloss front. In fact I've gained weight. School ended the third week of May. Since then I've gained 7 pounds. The combination of not having the excises of simple walking to classes and being bored with only 2 summer classes has causes me to eat more and not loss it.
I did go off dairy for 3 weeks and my eczema cleared up and I lost 3 pounds but quick;y went back on it because I was starving and since gained that back and the summer weight. I tried diet pills and they did nothing to curb my appetite.
I am really worried now that there are no more classes this summer that things are going to get worse. I feel like I will be eating a lot just out of boredom. I've talked to my Dr and beside chewing on Cinnamon sticks, he said I need to change my outlook. I'm trying.
I found a site that logs my meals and workouts and lets me know how many calories I've burn vs. how many I've eaten. I've done this for about a week and while I've been about even on the intake out take. my intake is around 3,000 calories!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It needs to be around 2,000 if not 1,500 to loss the weight. So basily I need to stop snacking cause that is what is really killing me. It takes all the calories away that I should be getting at dinner time.
I really really want to eat right now. I;ve already had a bowl of cereal, a pop, and 2 chocolate rolls, So in now way am I hungry. I know right now that it is a pscholical need to eat and I've trying really hard to ignore that need.
I think I'm gonna go outside and clean the porch now and stop thinking about the chips and dip in the kitchen that are calling my name.

No change

It's been a long time since I've had the chance to post because school has me swamped. There has been no change in my weight but other things have changed.
1) I started a new anti-depressant Effoxor and am having amazing results on it. My depression is very controlled, I am not near as tired, and my pain is not as bad. This has helped so much because I've been so much more productive because I am not sleeping all the time. Finals in in two weeks and I'm spending the day cleaning because I really have no school work because I am so ahead.
2) Because of the Effoxor I had to quit nursing Aeryn. We cold turkeyed it in two days and she did awesome. I miss nursing her but it was the best for both of us. I have been either pregnancy or nursing since August 19, 2002!!!
3) My DR. has taken my off dairy and beef two weeks ago. My lab work come back saying that my body was inflammed. He believes that this is a digestive thing and since I am allergic to dairy he took me off it and has me taking probiotic which is organism that will help reduce the inflammation. Not having dairy is really really hard and i have cheated a few times But i think that I am losing some weight since I am not eating all the time anymore.
4) while, i have stopped eating as much as I used too I still drink pop like a freak. Giving up cheese was heartbreaking and I do not think I could give up pop at this point maybe in a few months.
5) Nick is supposed to get some money from a personal injury lawsuit next week (mine will be here sometime this summer hopefully) and he is gonna be getting a pool. This will be great. Not only will the kids and I use it all the time during the summer and be spending time toghter but it will be good exercise without feeling like a chore.

So that is what is going on with me. I hope to be able to write more when summer comes. i will be taking two summer classes from may 21 till the end of June but July and half of August is free.

doing a little better

Well, I am done to less the a whole pop a day. Monday I had 1.4 of a dr. pepper. Tuesday I had 3/4 of a dr. pepper and it gave my indigestion and I really did not enjoy drinking it. Today I had a medium coke from McDonald's. I did not super size me meal and only ate half the fries.
I am still snacking but feel like I am eating less each time. That is something. The other day when I took my rings off the take a shower, they slide off easier then normal. I am also drinking a lot of water. I am also getting more exercise since I am at school and doing a lot of walking.
These are not huge improvement but they are a start and I am getting better. Hopefully things will continue to go along like this and I will see a Nice weight lost in 3 weeks when I see my dr again. Wish me luck