On a diet

I started keeping an online calorie counter. The first few days I did really well. These past two days not so much. It has been teaching me about what kind of calories I am eating. I had Mcdonald's today. My fish fillet value meal large size is about 1000 calories. That is half the daily recommend allowence. To be losing weight I should be eating 1500 calories but I have not even gotten close to that. Right now I am just focusing on making sure that I don't go over 2000 calories.
I am on spring break right now and have a fully stocked kitchen. I'm bored out of my mind and have been baking. Yesterday I made brownies and pretzel rods covered in vanilla frosting and fruity pebbles. I made them for my graduate school class but there were tons of left over. Just 1 hour ago after the frozen chicken went into the oven I made deviled eggs. I think I ate 4 whole eggs. I have not entered the deviled eggs into the calorie counter but I am going to guess that I am already over my daily alowance and I haven't even had dinner yet.
Right now I am drinking as much water as I can so when dinner happens I am not that hungry. I know that I will stay up late and be hungry later. I have to find a way not to eat tonight. I really need to be good about this diet for the next two days because Easter is Sunday and I am making a thanksgiving meal. Tonight I am making fried chicken for the family but have put some aside just baking for me. I will have baked chicken and a salad tonight. I will also go for a walk after the kids eat dinner.
I started to buy myself fat people clothes. This didn't bother me as much as I thought. I can look in the mirror and feel better about myself because I don't look frumpy. I look good. I still want to lose the weight. I want to have another baby in the future but will not get pregnant being this overweight. So if I start losing the weight now by the time we are ready for another baby I should have lost it by then.