10 day no soda challenge

I am trying to go off pop. Two weeks ago I did it and made it a week with only 1 can of pop. I got discouraged because I didn't really lose any weight. I was still drinking sweet tea and some carbonated water that has nutra sweet in it. This time I won't drink those only water and juice.

I am having a problem with getting discouraged a giving up lately. I was doing go on the 30 day shred for a week but lose no weight and it made me mad and I quit. I also was doing good about going off of pop but that didn't last. I guess I'm looking for instance results and I need to get in the mind set that its not going to happen like that.

Keeping track of what I was eating was going well but I broke my laptop and lose the webpage. Now that public school is over and all my summer classes are online I will have more time at home and will start doing that again because it was really helping.

I went for a walk with my kids and mother in law yesterday and was so out of shape. My chest hurt when we got home. I am try and take them for more walk now because they also need the exercise.

One day one of the no pop ch allege I weight 241.2 pounds. Hopefully after 10 days that will have changed a little.

30 day shred

So I ordered a new Jillian Michael's workout DVD called 30 Day Shred. It is made up of 20 minute workouts on three different levels. Each workout has 2 minutes of warm up and then 3 cycles of 3 minute of strength training, 2 minutes of cardio, and a minute of abs and final two minutes of warm down. I did it wensday when I got the DVD. I did the whole 20 minutes. It was soooo hard. I could barely do it but I did. I had a lot of trouble with the jumping exercise. By the 10 minutes mark I could barely move but I pushed through. I was not able to workout Thursday because of a major school project to do and Friday I was jsut too depressed to work out. I did it tonight and boy was it hard again. I did a little better today with the jumpong exercises. By the 4 minute mark I wanted to quit but she says something on the DVD "you don't get results for free". If I want to lose weight and be healthier I can not give up.

I have been doing good cuting out the pop. I had 1 wensday and onw tonight. I haven't stop completly but I have made a huge change from me 3 a day. I do need to cut back on the sugar. the Easter candy is gone so that will help.

My husband and I wanted to go to the the gym today but we had too much to do to get there. We might get there tomorrow. I cleaned the kitchen today. most times I clean the counters, take a break, sweep, take a break and then mop. Well today I didn't take a break. I keep up until I finished mopping and then I took a break. It was nto easy. I am so out of shape but I'm trying.

snacking

I'm done being fat. just done. I want to be healthier. I want to look better. I had successes and failures this week. I did not have a pop on Wensday. I was so proud of myself.the four days previsly I had pop but like 3/4 to1/2 of a can so I had been cuting down. Thursday Nick got Mcdonalds and got me food. I didn't tell him in time that I didn't want any. There was no way that I could say no to Mcdonald when it was right in front of me. I don't have that much will power. Friday was my down fall. I had two cokes and a frozen coke. Real cokes not coke zero. I went to a party that night and had like two hotdogs minus the buns and some fruit with cream cheese dip. I am guessing that the drip had a ton of calories.

I did work out 3 times this week already. I did the wii fit foir 45 minutes on sunday and wensday. I did a 35 minute workout video on Tuesday. I didn't work out on thursday because I had to get up really early in friday and needed the sleep.

I have a $10 gift card to amazon.com that I had been saving because there are some books coming out soon that I want. However I just found out about a video called 30 shred by Jillian Michael the person from biggest loser. the reviews looked great. I think instead of the books I am going to get the vidoe. I only have two vidoes and the wii fit right now and I need other things to prevent myself from getting bored.

My probelm right now is snacking. There is still easter candy around and I see if and I pop it into my mouth. How bad could a few m & M;s be right? I have to get rid of it soon or all my effort will go out the window.

On a diet

I started keeping an online calorie counter. The first few days I did really well. These past two days not so much. It has been teaching me about what kind of calories I am eating. I had Mcdonald's today. My fish fillet value meal large size is about 1000 calories. That is half the daily recommend allowence. To be losing weight I should be eating 1500 calories but I have not even gotten close to that. Right now I am just focusing on making sure that I don't go over 2000 calories.
I am on spring break right now and have a fully stocked kitchen. I'm bored out of my mind and have been baking. Yesterday I made brownies and pretzel rods covered in vanilla frosting and fruity pebbles. I made them for my graduate school class but there were tons of left over. Just 1 hour ago after the frozen chicken went into the oven I made deviled eggs. I think I ate 4 whole eggs. I have not entered the deviled eggs into the calorie counter but I am going to guess that I am already over my daily alowance and I haven't even had dinner yet.
Right now I am drinking as much water as I can so when dinner happens I am not that hungry. I know that I will stay up late and be hungry later. I have to find a way not to eat tonight. I really need to be good about this diet for the next two days because Easter is Sunday and I am making a thanksgiving meal. Tonight I am making fried chicken for the family but have put some aside just baking for me. I will have baked chicken and a salad tonight. I will also go for a walk after the kids eat dinner.
I started to buy myself fat people clothes. This didn't bother me as much as I thought. I can look in the mirror and feel better about myself because I don't look frumpy. I look good. I still want to lose the weight. I want to have another baby in the future but will not get pregnant being this overweight. So if I start losing the weight now by the time we are ready for another baby I should have lost it by then.

Bananna Split

Man, I want a banana split right now really bad. I have all the stuff and had one last night and I want another one. The scale is not my friend today and I already had McDonald's for lunch and 3 cokes so I really can not afford to have that banana split right now. I am taking an online midterm that is taking me forever. I'm 1/4 done and its taken well over an hour. I would love to have something sweet to help make this test easier.
I am not going to do it. Not going to eat it.
I am downstairs away from temptation and drinking a carbonated flavored water

Well

Well, I went to the Doctor's yesterday and their scale said I weighted 239. I about threw up. My scale at home that morning said 232. At home my weight goes from about 232 to 235. I have not lost any weight. I did put my mother in law excersize machine in the living room but have not been able to find time to use it. Between school, subbing and cleaning a house of 7 slobs excersing is the last thing on my list.

On a upside, I have bought some clothes that actully fit. meaning plus size clothing. I've had someone ask my if I lost weight!!!! No, but I have finally come to grips with being fat and know that it will not be lost soon. I have started wearing clothes that fit because It make me feel better.

It is 11:30 am and I have not had a pop yet but that won't last long. I'll have one at lunch. I did have one piece of chocolate so I guess that sorta cancels out the goodness of not having a coke yet.

loving the fat- the new goal

I've lost a few pounds so that is a good thing. This morining the scale read 230 which is so much better then the 236 I weighded in at a few months ago. I had been down to 228 last week but working full time and drinking a hell of a lot of soda was not great. I did eat out a few times but for the most part ate microwavable meals. So that might be something. I really think not eating out a lot will be very helpful.
I have notice that I drink a lot of pop when I am not at home. At home I drink some pop but a lot of water mostly at night when I get home from work. This means that I have to get up and pee in the middle of the night a lot but I know I need all the water I can get.
Something I have done in the last few weeks was come to the decision to accept my weight. I had so many clothes that I couldn't wear because they didn't fit, were too tight or show off my pregnant looking tummy. I know to help my self esteem that I need to make sure that all my clothes fit me and made me fill good about myself. I just packed away a box of clothes that didn't fit. In the prosses I found a few clothes that I though didn't fit but in fact did.
I am hoping that by doing this, by accepting me for who I am, that I will be more comfortable being me. I know I need to lose the weight to be healthy but being down on myself and hating the way I look is going to make me more depressed and will cause me to eat more. If I can accepted and love myself the way I am I will happy and more mentally healthy. I am still going to try to lose the weight but am going to try to love myself more.
I am off of work today and will make it a point of working out especially since I will be going to Red Lobster for lucnh because my husband got me a gift certificate for Christmas. I am going to enjoy it because we have not gone there in years but I will not be getting on the scale tomorrow.