Far away from the wagon

Well, I am not doing good at all on the weightloss front. In fact I've gained weight. School ended the third week of May. Since then I've gained 7 pounds. The combination of not having the excises of simple walking to classes and being bored with only 2 summer classes has causes me to eat more and not loss it.
I did go off dairy for 3 weeks and my eczema cleared up and I lost 3 pounds but quick;y went back on it because I was starving and since gained that back and the summer weight. I tried diet pills and they did nothing to curb my appetite.
I am really worried now that there are no more classes this summer that things are going to get worse. I feel like I will be eating a lot just out of boredom. I've talked to my Dr and beside chewing on Cinnamon sticks, he said I need to change my outlook. I'm trying.
I found a site that logs my meals and workouts and lets me know how many calories I've burn vs. how many I've eaten. I've done this for about a week and while I've been about even on the intake out take. my intake is around 3,000 calories!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It needs to be around 2,000 if not 1,500 to loss the weight. So basily I need to stop snacking cause that is what is really killing me. It takes all the calories away that I should be getting at dinner time.
I really really want to eat right now. I;ve already had a bowl of cereal, a pop, and 2 chocolate rolls, So in now way am I hungry. I know right now that it is a pscholical need to eat and I've trying really hard to ignore that need.
I think I'm gonna go outside and clean the porch now and stop thinking about the chips and dip in the kitchen that are calling my name.

No change

It's been a long time since I've had the chance to post because school has me swamped. There has been no change in my weight but other things have changed.
1) I started a new anti-depressant Effoxor and am having amazing results on it. My depression is very controlled, I am not near as tired, and my pain is not as bad. This has helped so much because I've been so much more productive because I am not sleeping all the time. Finals in in two weeks and I'm spending the day cleaning because I really have no school work because I am so ahead.
2) Because of the Effoxor I had to quit nursing Aeryn. We cold turkeyed it in two days and she did awesome. I miss nursing her but it was the best for both of us. I have been either pregnancy or nursing since August 19, 2002!!!
3) My DR. has taken my off dairy and beef two weeks ago. My lab work come back saying that my body was inflammed. He believes that this is a digestive thing and since I am allergic to dairy he took me off it and has me taking probiotic which is organism that will help reduce the inflammation. Not having dairy is really really hard and i have cheated a few times But i think that I am losing some weight since I am not eating all the time anymore.
4) while, i have stopped eating as much as I used too I still drink pop like a freak. Giving up cheese was heartbreaking and I do not think I could give up pop at this point maybe in a few months.
5) Nick is supposed to get some money from a personal injury lawsuit next week (mine will be here sometime this summer hopefully) and he is gonna be getting a pool. This will be great. Not only will the kids and I use it all the time during the summer and be spending time toghter but it will be good exercise without feeling like a chore.

So that is what is going on with me. I hope to be able to write more when summer comes. i will be taking two summer classes from may 21 till the end of June but July and half of August is free.

doing a little better

Well, I am done to less the a whole pop a day. Monday I had 1.4 of a dr. pepper. Tuesday I had 3/4 of a dr. pepper and it gave my indigestion and I really did not enjoy drinking it. Today I had a medium coke from McDonald's. I did not super size me meal and only ate half the fries.
I am still snacking but feel like I am eating less each time. That is something. The other day when I took my rings off the take a shower, they slide off easier then normal. I am also drinking a lot of water. I am also getting more exercise since I am at school and doing a lot of walking.
These are not huge improvement but they are a start and I am getting better. Hopefully things will continue to go along like this and I will see a Nice weight lost in 3 weeks when I see my dr again. Wish me luck

Lost a Pound!!!

it is not what I had hoped for but it is a start. I went to the Dr. on Monday and since I am using the scale there to see my weight loss/gain i found out that I went from 210 to 209!! I was hoping to lose 2 pounds. My Dr diagnosed me with a new disease closely related to fibremagyoia and start me on another prescription. He is hoping that it helps with the pain and the extreme fatigue. I really think that if I was not always so tired that I would be able to lose the weight. I am so tired all the time and all i want to do is sleep. I almost fell asleep in math class. that is really not good. I also realized that I tend to eat/ drink to keep myself awake. I am hoping that feeling better physically and feeling rested will help in my weight loss journey.

I also reached a turning point in my soda addiction. I went to the dentist last Friday because I thought that I had a few cavities that were hurting me when I had sweet things or drank really cold water. Turns out that I have cavities in almost every tooth actually they are positioned between the teeth.l. he said that is from sweet drinks like soda and that if I did not stop drinking the stuff that in 6 years my teeth will be nothing but fillings and there will be noting left to put anymore fillings into.SO i could be wearing dentures in 6 years if I do not give up pop. for the first time in a LONG time i do not want any soda to drink. I have only had like one pop a day. yesterday the first time i grabbed a soda was during my night class because I was falling asleep and i only drank half of it because it was hurting my to drink it. I did have a medium coke with breakfast which the size alone was a big thing because I always got larges.
At lunch time I got a flavored water to drink instead of pop. The flavored waters do have sugar in them but not near as much and I am thinking that it will now be my treat.
Hopefully soda will continue to be nasty to me and I will be able to finally get over my addiction to the danger drink.

Between the new pills and the promise of one day not being so damn tired and giving up soda I should start to lose the weight and start to feel better. lets keep our fingers crossed.

School has started

so that means that my posts will become less frequent. I will try to update as much as I can. We've been eating out a lot since we really have not been home. I have only cooked dinner once in the past week. Not sure what we will do tonight since i will not get home from school until 6:30. I have also been drinking a lot of pop because it is easier and has the caffeine. I also have been eating a lot of cholet. That is so not good for me. I can say though that I have been exercising, well walking a lot. Never wear new boots when you have a ton of walking to do.
During school days I have a long break and feel like I will be eating a lunch that is high in calories but I also think that I will walk enough to burn off a lot of those calories. I need to stop drinking pop. I will be getting something to drink before my math class in 20 minutes and It will be water. I have a Dr's appointment on Monday and we will see if I lost any weight. I truly believe that if I stop drinking pop I will start to loss the weight. i just am having so much trouble giving it up.
Hopefully next time I post I will have more thing to be proud about and less things to be ashamed of.

Not doing very well

for the past two days, I've been on the road and on the road means pop and fast food. Thursday the kid and I went with MIL to the dr and then went to McDonald's. Later that day Nick and I filed out taxes and had subway for dinner. I had some many soda's that day that I can not even bring myself to write the number. Yesterday Randin had speech therapy and then we went to McDonald's again. He also had an eye appointment and I got a Milkyways afterwards. Last night Nick and I went shopping and out to dinner. We went to O' Charley's and I got the Bayou Shrimp pasta, a salad and had some cheeses sticks. I did not eat all my meal but I finished it later at night. I do have to say that I have been walking around a lot since we are shopping but not nearly enough exercise to burn off any of the calories that I've consumed. We only get this kind of money twice a year, in January and August from me school loan. So this kind of running around and shopping does not happen that much.
It is 9 o'clock and I've had a Cinnamon roll and a pop. Now I need a shower and have got to start cleaning and organizing the house.

Drank 120 oz of water yesterday

8 20 oz bottles like I said I would. I also cleaned the living room, kitchen and did lots of laundry. So I repented for the cholcate cake late monday night. I did have a small piece of cake with lunch and a sliver after dinner but the cake is all gone now so there is no more temptation.

I did not get a lot of sleep last night because Aeryn is cutting some molars and they are really bothering her. I got like 6 hours sleep whihc is sorta normal for me but usually I just lounge around and watch tv with the kids in the moring and do not have to be up and moving around until I am really awake. With Randin in school now I do have to be up and out of here at 7:30. I am so tired today. I had a can of dr.pepper, a bottle of diet pepsi and a coffee. Bad Lex. I am only on my first bottle of water.

What I've noticed about the water is that it does curb my appetite. I still want to eat but not because I am hungry which was a big excuse of mine. Today I have eaten two eggs (when 3 is how many I usually eat) two pieces of toast, a handful of french fies, a chicken wrap, half of a country fired steak and a few bites of mac and cheese. that sounds like a lot and it is but i did not finish the steak and mac and cheese and usually I would have. I can honestly say that I am not hungry right now but I still really want something to snack on.

I need to invest in extra gum!!LOL