New Update

So its been 6 months since the last time I posted. This last semester has been hell for me. I was in the elementary education methods block, which included 120 observation hours plus 4 upper level classes. I actually did about 180 observation hours which included a least 2 if not 4 lessons for each day I was there which was Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. I also worked anywhere from 22 to 30 hours a week as a cashier for Best Buy. On Fridays I literally went straight from school to work. I loved working with the students and love my job but can not waiting until I am out of school and have a full time job as a teacher.

As you probably can imagine I did not have a lot of time for much this semester, especially taking care of myself. I ate where I could, what I could. I did get a lot of exercise running around the elementary school but my diet canceled that out. I ate out a lot and even when I didn't I drank a lot of pop. I was barely getting any sleep since after the kids went to bed I had to do school work. The pop was the only thing keeping me awake.

The semester is over and I am not taking any summer classes. Just working 2 days a week and studying for the test to get my teaching certificate. I am now worried that my weight is going to go up. Last summer I gained 8 pounds because of the lack of excersise and I can not afford for that to happen again. I have been trying to get outside and play with my kids but I don;t have a lot of energy I did buy the Wii Fit and have been working out on that. It is fun and convinent and I can only hope that it helps me lose some weight.

A Not Important Update

Well, in November i started working at Best Buy as a casher.I was 215 pounds The week before Christmas I was down to 211 pounds. This was even with eating out a lot because I was never home. I was drinking more water because we were not allowed soda on the floor and getting a bit of excersize because I always ended up vacuuming my area and then a few other people's. One night I vacuumed almost the entire store. I quite the 3 days before Christmas and one week later I am back up to 214 pounds. I am not getting any excersie and eating a lot.

Why am I eating a lot?
1) It is Christmas time and my mother in law made tons or great tasting deserts.
2) there was a ton of candy in my stocking, but i have not even eating a quarter of it yet
3) I am really stressed and board and when I am stressed and board I eat.

How to I stop eating?
1) well most of the deserts are gone by now so that is something
2) I still have candy but i really do not want to eat it
3) find things to do to prevent boardom
4) find others ways to relived stress

Number 3 and 4 are going to be really hard to do. Since, I do not drive and can not leave the house my options are limited. I can clean, play outside, read and play on the internet. There is only so much cleaning a person can do, i don't like to take my sick kids outside and I usually read at the table eating. I have yet to find a way to relive my stress besides eating.

Today alone, I have had a bowl of chili, 4 cookies, 1 coke zero, and 2 pieces of fudge. which does not seem that bad being that it is 1:39 but considering that I slept until 11:30. it is bad. What is terrible is that I am still hungry. I guess it would be better to eat another bowl of chili versus snacking on cookies all day

update

I am really bad on updating this thing. It maybe that there has been no huge updates to post.
School started and that meant YOGA class. I was dreading it but turns out that I love it. I have a great teaching who is really understanding and if I can't do something she is totally okay with it. She teaches us a lot of restorative positions that have really helped me. I actually fell asleep one class and it was the best 45 minutes of sleep that I had gotten in weeks. There is has been a few pounds weight loss but nothing major that I am going to get excited about. My eating habits have not changed that much except that I am drinking more water.

I have seen some other benefits from taking yoga
1. Mentally I am feeling awesome. Like there has been a huge improvement in my depression since i started. even with a lot of stresses, I am feeling happy and able to handle the stresses
2. my pain is not as bad as it was. I am still having a lot of back pain but I think that it is from my bed.
3. my face, which this summer was cover with zits, has now clear up a ton
4. sex is better for me. used to be it hurt but the last couple of times has been freaking amazing.

Proud of myself

I actually finished a whole work out video. It was 40 minutes long. I've never been able to go past 30 minutes before. I am really proud of myself for finished it.
On the other hand my home scale says I gained those two pounds that I lost back. I can not seem to lose weight. I've realized that it is my diet. I've tried to give up pop but it is so hard. I posted on my fridge a paper that states: No pop, 1 dairy item daily, one sweet daily and small portion. I'm hoping it will help me.
I need to start setting smaller goals for myself.

Goal for this week is to try to elimate pop. I had one today so none tomorrow.

Workout Videos

Something my Doctor said to me at my last appointment about making exercing fun and something for me really hit me. Two days later I started working out. I have about 5 differnt exercise videos and have been using them. I also have spent time just stretching my muscles. I have not been able to workout for more then 30 minutes so far but have made some progress in the week that I've been working out. I been switching between 3 different videos right now and each time I do one I get a little bit father then I did the last time I worked out to that video.
My scales says that since my last doctor appointment 9 days ago I've LOST 2POUNDS!!!!!. How wonderful is that. It is not official until because I am using my doctors scale and the official weight but it is an way of telling my if I am going in the right direction.
I've also been drinking as much water as I can. I will fill up a gallon water jug and sit and drink it at one time if I can. I have not cut out pop yet but the water is helping control my appetite. I've even cut back a little on my snacking.
I've still got a LONG way to go but I might finally be on the path to my goal.

Far away from the wagon

Well, I am not doing good at all on the weightloss front. In fact I've gained weight. School ended the third week of May. Since then I've gained 7 pounds. The combination of not having the excises of simple walking to classes and being bored with only 2 summer classes has causes me to eat more and not loss it.
I did go off dairy for 3 weeks and my eczema cleared up and I lost 3 pounds but quick;y went back on it because I was starving and since gained that back and the summer weight. I tried diet pills and they did nothing to curb my appetite.
I am really worried now that there are no more classes this summer that things are going to get worse. I feel like I will be eating a lot just out of boredom. I've talked to my Dr and beside chewing on Cinnamon sticks, he said I need to change my outlook. I'm trying.
I found a site that logs my meals and workouts and lets me know how many calories I've burn vs. how many I've eaten. I've done this for about a week and while I've been about even on the intake out take. my intake is around 3,000 calories!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It needs to be around 2,000 if not 1,500 to loss the weight. So basily I need to stop snacking cause that is what is really killing me. It takes all the calories away that I should be getting at dinner time.
I really really want to eat right now. I;ve already had a bowl of cereal, a pop, and 2 chocolate rolls, So in now way am I hungry. I know right now that it is a pscholical need to eat and I've trying really hard to ignore that need.
I think I'm gonna go outside and clean the porch now and stop thinking about the chips and dip in the kitchen that are calling my name.

No change

It's been a long time since I've had the chance to post because school has me swamped. There has been no change in my weight but other things have changed.
1) I started a new anti-depressant Effoxor and am having amazing results on it. My depression is very controlled, I am not near as tired, and my pain is not as bad. This has helped so much because I've been so much more productive because I am not sleeping all the time. Finals in in two weeks and I'm spending the day cleaning because I really have no school work because I am so ahead.
2) Because of the Effoxor I had to quit nursing Aeryn. We cold turkeyed it in two days and she did awesome. I miss nursing her but it was the best for both of us. I have been either pregnancy or nursing since August 19, 2002!!!
3) My DR. has taken my off dairy and beef two weeks ago. My lab work come back saying that my body was inflammed. He believes that this is a digestive thing and since I am allergic to dairy he took me off it and has me taking probiotic which is organism that will help reduce the inflammation. Not having dairy is really really hard and i have cheated a few times But i think that I am losing some weight since I am not eating all the time anymore.
4) while, i have stopped eating as much as I used too I still drink pop like a freak. Giving up cheese was heartbreaking and I do not think I could give up pop at this point maybe in a few months.
5) Nick is supposed to get some money from a personal injury lawsuit next week (mine will be here sometime this summer hopefully) and he is gonna be getting a pool. This will be great. Not only will the kids and I use it all the time during the summer and be spending time toghter but it will be good exercise without feeling like a chore.

So that is what is going on with me. I hope to be able to write more when summer comes. i will be taking two summer classes from may 21 till the end of June but July and half of August is free.