I just don't know

I thought I had been doing well. I ate out Last Friday and then last Saturday. I have not eaten out for the last 3 days not a big deal but the scale says I am 4 pounds heavier then I was on Sunday. I did just drink a lot of water right before I got on the scale but I know that it did not add that much weight to me. I thought I had been doing good but I guess not.

It has to be the snacking. I get a nutty butty bar and a coke in the morning. I usually have some kind of snack around 8:30 and then eat lunch at 11:40. I then come home and eat another snack and then eat dinner late that night and sometimes have a snack later. OMG that is so much eating now that I see it in writing.


My Goals for the next few days are

• Go walking tonight
• work on the WII FIT on Wensday for at least 30 minutes
• drink only 1 coke a day
• Carry my water jug to school this week instead of getting coke
• stop snacking at my planning period
• do not snack after school, come home and have an early dinner

Hopefully I can do all of these things. I just can not stand being like this anymore.

disgusted with myself

The scale reached a number I never thought I would see under me. 232. I am just disgusted with myself right now. i know it is from eating out at night. Everyone morning before school my friend and I stop at a gas station. I get a coke and something for breakfast like a nutty butty bar. not the best breakfast I know. Since, I am student teaching I eat lunch with my students. I eat the school lunch and know that it is healthy. The problem is that it is not a lot of food and I am starving by the time I leave school. since I have some school loan money left we just stop on the way home and grab food. I think I ate out everyday last week. The weekends also kill me because I work on Saturday and always go to subway. not the best idea let me tell you. I also had 3 cokes yesterday. Today we had an early meeting and we got Hardee's for lunch.

I also am not working out. I do a lot of walking at school. enough that the nutty butty bar would not be a huge deal, it is the eating after school that is hurting me. I am so tired by the time I get home that I can think of cooking.

My goal for the day is no more cokes and only one snack before dinner
my goal for the week is only to eat out once.
I also need to keep updated this and recording what I eat. seeing it in print makes it more really how much I am eating.